SPICY CHAI LATTE

Dear sister,

I've been thinking of you since the other day when we were at the gym. I like when we talk about life while moving our bods, feels so productive and efficient of us. You said, "I didn't realize being 23 was going to be this confusing" and I wanted to jump straight off my elliptical pedals and hug you. I didn't, because... well, neither of us are much for a 'scene', and I know you didn't mean much by it, but the empathy rushed through me like stepping into a cold shower. I know we are completely different people, in all sense of the word, but please believe me when I say I know exactly how you feel. Once a 'grown up' (read, graduated), we were under the impression that if one works hard, you get what you want/need. It seemed a realistic expectation to me too, and the reality of it is, like you said, far more confusing than we romanticized this phase of life to be.

Though I've only got a few years on you, and am clearly still figuring things out, I promise you that this will pass. Life will surely become more expensive, and more responsibility will rear it's head, but you continue to grow up with those things. By observation and life experience, we write our own definition of what love is, and then giving and getting that kind of love, seems to be most important to all these other little things. Sappy, I know, deal with it. I don't have answers, but I know our hopes of cute houses, dinner parties and traveling aren't far off. I am so proud of you, and the fact that you are pursuing what you love inspires me.

This lovely beverage, in an ironic way, is kind of what I am trying to say. I initially followed a recipe; it wasn't spicy enough, it suggested you steep the tea in milk (which never works) and was less than impressive. When I tried it again, MY way, it was better than I thought. You may have to figure through this crazy life a few different ways, but in the end it will exceed your expectations.

Love, your STILL confused yet motivational sister xo

SPICY CHAI LATTE // Makes 4 Small Cups

4 Bags of Black Tea (English/Irish Breakfast, Darjeeling etc.)

1 Cup Milk

2 inch. piece Fresh Ginger, cut into pieces

1 tsp. Cloves

1 tsp. Cardamom Seeds

1 tsp. Black Peppercorns

3 Cinnamon Sticks

1 tsp. Ground Nutmeg

Star Anise (optional)

Muscavado/Brown Sugar or Honey

1. In a small plastic bag, combine the peppercorns, cloves and cardamom. Use a heavy mallet or skillet to crush the spices into coarse pieces.

2. In a saucepan on medium heat, combine the milk, crushed spices, cinnamon sticks, ginger pieces, and fresh ground nutmeg. Allow the milk to come to a gentle boil, then cover and turn off the heat. Allow everything to steep for about 15 minutes.

3. While the spicy milk steeps, bring water to a boil. Combine the 4 tea bags with two cups of boiling water. Allow the tea to steep for about 4 minutes and discard the tea bags. Add the tea to the warm spicy milk.

4. Put a fine mesh sieve or coffee filter over a pitcher, and strain the spice chunks out of the tea. Put one Tbsp. of muscavado sugar or honey in each cup and pour the tea latte on top. Stir and enjoy warm.

* If you like it cold, add the sweetener and chill the pitcher for a few hours. Do not pour over ice immediately or it will be watery and tasteless. Serve over ice once the chai is completely cold.

YOGURT & GOAT CHEESE TART

First of all, thank you. Your encouraging comments and snippets from your own personal experiences, have been so encouraging to read (and re-read when I was convinced I should ask for my job back at 3am a couple nights ago). I think you're pretty neat, and if you are ever in my area, I will share this tangy spring tart with you.

I am not a good sleeper. I think and overanalyze until my brain simply can't take it anymore, and only then will I fall asleep. A best friend, being short on time, asked me to come up with ideas of things she could cook WHILE taking a shower. It's these kinds of questions which keep me up at night. Having answers can be consuming, and I mean that for both the big and small questions in life.

I come up with cooking ideas that sound good in theory, but with no certainty that they will turn out. This tart was one of those experiments. I'd plucked pieces from other blogs, pictures I'd seen in magazines and mixed them together into something I envisioned would taste good and look pretty. A few tries later, and forcing the imperfect tarts on everyone I've seen in the past week, we finally have something worth sharing. It is light, to welcome spring, but still rich enough to taste like a satisfying dessert. You can't make it while taking a shower, but it's worth your time.

YOGURT & GOAT CHEESE TART // Serves 8

I love the swirl of the acai puree here because it is different. Sambazon frozen packets are fairly easy to find, especially at a health food store, but any berry puree (fresh or frozen) will work, it just won't be as smooth. As I mention in the directions with the acai, you will need to reduce it down a bit for a thicker consistency.

1 1/2 Cups Lowfat Plain Greek Yogurt

8 oz. Chevre (Soft Goat's Cheese), at room temperature

1 Tbsp. Fresh Lemon Juice

4 Large Egg Whites

1/3 - 1/2 Cup Honey

2 Tbsp. Reduced Acai Puree*

* Thaw the frozen acai packet or berries, blend if what you're using is not already blended. Simmer on stove on medium for about 2-3 minutes until most of the water is released, and you have a paste left. Mix that paste with 1 tsp. of honey. Set aside.

// Crust //

1 Cup Old Fashioned Oats

1/2 Cup Oat Flour

1/4 Cup Unsalted Butter, softened

1/4 Cup Muscavado/Brown Sugar

1 tsp. Real Vanilla Extract

1/4 tsp. Salt

1/2 tsp. Fresh Ground Nutmeg

Oven to 350'

1. In a large mixing bowl, combine the oats, oat flour, muscavado or brown sugar, vanilla, salt and nutmeg. Add the softened butter and mix to create a moist crumb. Coat the bottom of a glass or ceramic 10'' pie pan with a thin swipe of butter, and distribute the oat mixture evenly on the bottom and up the sides. It's ok if it's not perfect, rustic looks pretty.

2. Bake the crust on the middle rack for about 12 minutes. Cool while you make the filling.

3. In the meantime, put the chevre and yogurt in a bowl and beat on low with an electric mixer for about 3 minutes (or briskly with a whisk) until combined and smooth. Add honey and lemon juice and combine. With the egg whites in another bowl, loosen them with a whisk for a minute, and add them to the goat mixture. Beat with the mixers/whisk for just 30 seconds to combine. You don't want to incorporate too much air or it will get too poofy in the oven.

4. Put the acai puree in the yogurt filling bowl, and give it one or two folds to swirl in the color, as you pour it into the crust, it will swirl more.

4. Place the pie dish in a larger (I used 13x9) pan, and fill it with water until it comes up about 1/2'' up the side. Bake in the middle rack for about 30 minutes until the edges are set. Turn off the oven and leave the door ajar, and allow the tart to sit in there another 10 minutes. Remove and cool.

4. Refrigerate for at least two hours for the tart to firm up. Cut it with a clean, sharp knife, and clean it with a damp cloth between slices.

SQUASH BOATS WITH QUINOA

One day life can seem so routine, and then you look back on particular moments and specific days, and see that a decision you made changed the course of your life. Was it wise to quit my job? I'm not sure yet. But I do know I wasn't fufilled in how I was spending most of my days, and making a decision to change that, be it risky, can't possibly be a bad one. I don't always follow rules, but I am cautious, and attempting a more entrepenurial career is not something I imagined I would do. I admire people who takes chances, and I can dream about what I'd 'rather be doing', but some personalities are comfortable in safe places. Most of us, I would guess. Which is why I am so grateful to have Hugh, whose encouragement in sincerely wanting me to do work that makes me happy, is what pushed me to give my notice. Some days I feel SO GOOD about this, but there are moments I panic and cry. I'm relieved but scared all at the same time. My emotions are incredibly confused and excited, motivated and stone cold frightened within the course of a day.

My plan is to be a renaissance woman; pursuing a number of small projects until I find a rhythm that works. I intend to expand my dinner delivery business, cook for small dinner parties, teach cooking classes, maybe get certified to teach pilates, start a cookbook, work at the local farm a few days a week and sell advertising on this lovely site, so I can spend more time here. I didn't want to keep waiting to be doing things I wanted to do. I wasn't sure what exactly I was waiting for, as there is resounding advice I get from older folk, "there will never be enough money for a house, for kids, for vacations... but you just do it". So thank you to Hugh, for pushing me and believing I have more potential than I think I do, and to my family and close friends who affirm that this is a promising decision. So until I panic and cry again, let's eat squash boats.

SQUASH BOATS WITH QUINOA // Serves 2

You could use any squash, they would just hold different amounts of quinoa filling. I think it would be a great side in acorn squash. You could serve this with a protein, or make it a meal of it's own by mixing your protein of choice into the quinoa. I think it would be nice with a little parmesan cheese to top it off as well.

1 Kabocha Squash

2 tbsp. Maple

1 Tbsp. Olive Oil

Pinch of Salt and Pepper

3/4 Cup Quinoa

1 tsp. Ground Cardamom

1 Shallot, Minced

1 Pear, diced (any type you prefer, but a firm one)

1/3 Cup Basil, Chopped

3 Tbsp. Meyer Lemon Juice

1 Tbsp. Extra Virgin Olive Oil

1 Tbsp. Agave Nectar/Honey

2 Cup Baby Spinach and or Mache Lettuce

Salt and Fresh Pepper to taste

Oven to 425'

1. Cut squash in half and seed it. Mix the maple and olive oil and rub generously onto the flesh of the squash. Roast cut side down, for about 20 minutes. Turn the squash cut side up and cook about another 15 - 20 minutes 'til finishes cooking and caramelizes on top. The cooking time will depend on the size and type of squash you use, continue to test it with a fork. It should be the firmness of a baked potato.

2. While squash is cooking, prepare the quinoa. Bring 1 1/2 cups water to a boil and add the quinoa, cover and simmer for about 10 minutes until the liquid is absorbed. Remove and transfer to a mixing bowl. Add the shallot, lemon juice, cardamom, olive oil, and stir. Allow to cool down about 8 minutes, add the basil, pear and greens to combine **Don't add them when the quinoa is pipping hot, otherwise it will wilt them into a brown mess.

3. Remove the squash boats and let them sit about 5 minutes to cool down. Fill each cavern with desired amount of quinoa mix. Sprinkle the top with fresh ground pepper and serve.